I am 35 pounds down. The biggest change in myself that I've noticed is how I've learned to deal with my emotions. Instead of letting myself feel my emotions in the past I would stuff them away by stuffing myself with food.
A recurring example of this was when I would have a bad day at work. When that occurred I would take a trip to Taco Bell which isn't necessarily a problem in itself. You see if I just grabbed a taco no big deal. Aside from the fact it is junk food and has lots of chemicals one taco isn't the end of the world. Would I eat just one taco? Of course not :(
My experience at Taco Bell would be one of total disregard for normal portion sizes. I would eat a days worth of calories in one sitting. I felt disgusting and stuffed each time I did this but I guess I got exactly what I was looking for-to feel stuffed! Did it solve the days problems? Not at all. It was a way to just not deal with things and ignore them.
Now if I have a bad day, I have a bad day. I go to the gym or relax with a great book. Most importantly I let myself get upset and then move on. I don't use food as a substitute for feeling my emotions. Not anymore and never again.
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